Nov. 10th, 2003
Nov. 10th, 2003 11:08 am
So much to do, so little time
In less than 24 hours I'll be 26 years old. 26 years old and what have I done? Fuck all, that's what. Over a quarter of a century and I've had no impact on the world at all. I should have done something, been someone, made an impression, built a life, and where am I? In a single bedroom flat, 5 minutes drive from my parents' house. I have a job that I'm rapidly coming to despise and the world is marching on without me. I should be established by now, but instead I'm still trying to catch up. My friends at home are mostly well on the road, with wives and fiancees and the beginning of careers (not that I particularly want a career as such). They know where they're going and how to get there. I know fuck all. I'm terrified of ending up right where I am now. How sad would that be?
Nov. 10th, 2003 05:23 pm
Meeting over and feeling better
The meeting with my slimy client went rather better than I anticipated and it's produced a sort of euphoria of relief. I shall go home happy tonight, and see about getting myself some St. John's Wort, as recommended, tomorrow. I shall also get some sleep, and start wearing my glasses as headaches relating to eye strain probably aren't helping matters.