Nov. 11th, 2003 09:26 am
It's only forever, not long at all
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orinoco77Well, 26 I would appear to be. Hurrah...
Actually I'm not too bad this morning. I'm reasonably perky, I know what I have to do today, it's not terrible, I'm perfectly capable of doing it, and it won't piss me off. So that makes it marginally better than most Tuesdays.
I have decided to take the advice so sagely handed out yesterday and attempt to find something, barring a relationship, that will make me happy. I've not considered it in a long time because I'd believed that what I really needed was someone else. I still don't think I'm the sort of person who's cut out for being alone, but I've done it for years now, I suppose I can get by. I feel like I'm settling for second best with my life; like I'm resigning myself to never getting what I want and trying to make believe that the consolation prize isn't so bad, but we'll see. Maybe it isn't so bad. Still, it does mean I need to actually work out what I want. That could be interesting.
Actually I'm not too bad this morning. I'm reasonably perky, I know what I have to do today, it's not terrible, I'm perfectly capable of doing it, and it won't piss me off. So that makes it marginally better than most Tuesdays.
I have decided to take the advice so sagely handed out yesterday and attempt to find something, barring a relationship, that will make me happy. I've not considered it in a long time because I'd believed that what I really needed was someone else. I still don't think I'm the sort of person who's cut out for being alone, but I've done it for years now, I suppose I can get by. I feel like I'm settling for second best with my life; like I'm resigning myself to never getting what I want and trying to make believe that the consolation prize isn't so bad, but we'll see. Maybe it isn't so bad. Still, it does mean I need to actually work out what I want. That could be interesting.