It's only forever, not long at all

[orinoco77]

Well, 26 I would appear to be. Hurrah...

Actually I'm not too bad this morning. I'm reasonably perky, I know what I have to do today, it's not terrible, I'm perfectly capable of doing it, and it won't piss me off. So that makes it marginally better than most Tuesdays.

I have decided to take the advice so sagely handed out yesterday and attempt to find something, barring a relationship, that will make me happy. I've not considered it in a long time because I'd believed that what I really needed was someone else. I still don't think I'm the sort of person who's cut out for being alone, but I've done it for years now, I suppose I can get by. I feel like I'm settling for second best with my life; like I'm resigning myself to never getting what I want and trying to make believe that the consolation prize isn't so bad, but we'll see. Maybe it isn't so bad. Still, it does mean I need to actually work out what I want. That could be interesting.

Comments

[melodysk.livejournal.com]

Babes...I *know* this isn't what you want to hear probably ..but you are young ..a mere babe and there is plenty of time for things to happen. In the meantime , take the pressure off yourself ..look for another job ....get ON with your writing ...start to like yourself more

*hugs*

[assassinscloak.livejournal.com]

Happy Birthday! (don't worry, I sharn't sing)

[pickwick.livejournal.com]

Whoo! Happy Birthday!

[melodysk.livejournal.com]

ROTFL

[orinoco77.livejournal.com]

Genius!

[pickwick.livejournal.com]

Boils and Blinding Torment has the best e-cards ever - I use them all the time. (That's where the image came from.)

And they have great recaps, too.

[(Anonymous)]

Making any part of your happiness conditional on other people just leads to badness.
Especially after you kill them and send them to hell.

- Buffy.

[orinoco77.livejournal.com]

Er, quite.

[the-hunter.livejournal.com]

At aged 26 I was single and alone...six months later I was married, working and happy...came as a bit of a shock...anything is possible, trust me on diss.

[orinoco77.livejournal.com]

I know, and I keep hoping that things will turn out for the best, but sometimes I just think "Christ, how long do I have to wait?". I know all this is irrational and illogical, childish even, but it's all so bloody frustrating.

Also, I don't mean to annoy anyone with this self-indulgent crap. I know there are better, more interesting and less juvenile things to be reading.

[pickwick.livejournal.com]

My dad didn't get married till he was 42.

(Er, that was meant to be reassuring, but it might just be depressing...)

[perdita-x.livejournal.com]

I'd say happy birthday but I've gone and lost my voice.. silly me I can't think where I've left it... ;) well you'll have to do with me mouthing it.. *happy birthday*!

[orinoco77.livejournal.com]

Thanks. :)

[alais.livejournal.com]

Have a great brthday.

Tell me, would it make you happy to submit some of your writing for my zine? 'Cos I badly need some good content...

Can probably even come up with some payment-in-kind for accepted stuff, even though it is a no-cash venture.

http://extraverse.org/ --
look, marvel, submit.

[orinoco77.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I'll certainly give it a good look. All my friends are stars! I don't know about good content, but I'll see what I can do :)

Boo!

[missharris.livejournal.com]

*bites*
*runs away*

[dave-t-lurker.livejournal.com]

Happy Birthday you old git ;-)

[orinoco77.livejournal.com]

*ahem*

*points to Dave's birthdate*

[ruthi.livejournal.com]

Happy Birthday.
*flowers*

[orinoco77.livejournal.com]

Awww! Thank you :)

*hug*

[isihac.livejournal.com]

It's a bit late (life is waaay too busy) but...

Happy Birthday hon!

[orinoco77.livejournal.com]

Thankee! I've gone from terribly morose to curiously upbeat today, and I think it's mostly thanks to the mad bunch who've commented above. I think I love you all a little bit, but that might just be crazy brain chemicals talking :)

[isihac.livejournal.com]

but that might just be crazy brain chemicals talking

Make mine a double ;-)

[orinoco77.livejournal.com]

You've been a busy bee recently. Haven't seen you in #zx in ages. :(

[isihac.livejournal.com]

Wake up, go to work, work, come home, do housework, have dinner, work, go to sleep.

I'm tired.

[orinoco77.livejournal.com]

:(